Struggling.

I have so many mixed emotions lately. I know I said I was going to be positive, I am its just somethings off. Maybe its the fact that for once in the past 2 1/2 years I'm single and can breath on my own. I do get lonely and wish I had someone to share things with. But I'm going to feel that way for a little longer. I do wish I had someone to really talk to about going back to school. I have so many feelings about that and not really anyone I can reallllly share them with. I guess I'm going to have to figure this out on my own. Thats what being independent is anyway.

New year.

So it's a new year and it's time for a new me. I'm excited about this. I need to become a better person and stop being so selfish. I need to get out of the past and stop going back to past guys. Not saying I don't wanna be their friend but dating again is a no. I wanna see what I've been missing seeing as I've been in two relationships in the past 3 years. I'm not gonna be a skank I just wanna go on a date and have fun. I wanna do awesome in school and be awesome at work so come August I can move out. Its time for some positive changes and to have fun. 2011 is going to be my year. I can tell already. Its time to stop overreacting and worrying to being carefree and let things come as they do. I'm excited to change, and this year I'm really sticking to it.